So I have not officially declared my day 1 just yet. I’m hoping to make it on October 1st, so that tracking can be a little easier…and tbh it gives me a couple more days to enjoy eating my favorite foods. Again -> real person.

In high school, I thought I was fat. Wow. If only I could actually go back to that weight now! I never weighed myself in high school, but I would say I was close to about 110 lbs. I got into a toxic relationship after high school and dropped probably close to 100 lbs..maybe even less. I didn’t realize how much weight I had loss until I saw friends from high school again. That’s when they asked if I was okay. They apparently said I looked so skinny, almost sick.

Finally free from that horrible relationship, I felt happy again. Free almost. That’s when the weight packed on. My weight sky rocketed to about 130 lbs. I gained 30 lbs and again, I didn’t realize it until my family started mentioning my weight gain. I wasn’t motivated still to lose weight until I decided I wanted to try out for the Cougar Dolls collegiate dance team. I knew I was not in shape and would no way be able to keep up with the fit girls, so I started going to the gym. I cut out sodas, ate less hot Cheetos and went to the gym. Literally that’s it. I drank sodas everyday all day and always ate a bag of hot cheetoes at bedtime. I was able to bring my weight down to about 115 lbs in just 2 months. Not bad at all! You’d be surprised at how much weight you can lose by just cutting out sodas alone. Anyways, I made the team, quit the team and started dating again, which ultimately meant more drinking and going out to eat. My weight went back up to 130 lbs quickly.

I am currently sitting at probably close to 140 lbs. I haven’t weighed myself in forever just because I know I’ll feel terrible when I see the numbers. I even stopped going out because I’m just not comfortable or confident with the way I look anymore. I wear nothing but leggings and baggy T-shirts. I can’t close my jeans and fitted shirts just show my fat. I don’t even bother fixing my hair anymore. Why. I’m just home. But I want to change. However, I’ve tried several times to go back to the gym and eat healthy but not seeing results right away kills my motivation. I the gym and diet last about a week maybe two if I’m lucky and that’s it.

This is why I am here writing this now. I want to stick to this and finish it to the end. I want to workout and eat healthy which is going to be hell for me. I already know this. And expensive because eating healthy is so freaking expensive. But I’m determined now to just do it. I’ve ordered a weight scale, I’m going healthy food shopping, and I’m going to start my research. My ultimate weight goal is 110 lbs. If I am truly 140 lbs, that’s 30 lbs to lose. I’m hoping to lose at least 8 lbs a month… but I know that’s pushing it. I’ll be lucky if it’s 4 lbs a month. If I can lose 8 lbs a month than I’ll reach my goal in 4 months, by January. If it’s 4 lbs a month, it’ll take me 8 months…..that’s May. But I’ll get what I can give.

But I’ve read so many eat this and lose 40 lbs instantly or do this and watch the weight come off in 2 weeks. Fake ads, fake news, fake people. I’m going to show you a real fitness journey from a real person.